Kristina
Hello, my name is Kristina and this is the story of the first time I had sex.
It was summer, I was 14 years old and I had been dating my then boyfriend, Carl, 15, for around 5 months. I know I should have waited, but whats happened has happened.
His parents were away visiting some of Carl's family in Canada, and his older sister was staying at her friends house until the Sunday (It was Friday), so he invited me around to stay the night. I spoke about it with my mom, because this would be the first time I had slept over there unsupervised, and she agreed to let me go.
When I was first there we were just watching some movies and television. We then started to make-out passionately. Carl was feeling me all over, he then started to undo my belt buckle.
I pulled away, and jumped up quickly, and asked him what he was doing. He apologised, and told me that if I wasn't ready then he'd wait. We carried on to make out, when he stopped and whispered "Are you sure you aren't ready?" I thought about it, and hesitantly agreed to.
Carl was happy about my decision, extatic even. He had promised he would be gentle, therefor he only used one finger, until he carefully slipped another in, and then a third, i winced as we hadn't even gotten this far before, I started to have second thoughts so I began to tense, which increased the pain, i yelped almost silently, Carl still didn't stop. Unaware of the mixed feelings I was having. He then stopped, and I thought he had realised my pain, but he hadn't, he only stopped to ask if he should move on, I saw the glimmers of hope in his eyes. I nodded, and he slowly pushed himself infront of me, and moved in and out.
Putting my legs on his shoulders, and lying ontop of me. I won't lie to you, it really hurt the first few times it went in, but then I was slightly numb, and it started to feel great, after about 20 minutes he quickly pulled out and walked away. I asked what was wrong, and he said nothing. I felt something inside of me, and he admitted he had came in me, after I had asked him not to. Shit. I didnt know what to do, I didn't take the pill because I was too worried, I know...bad move.
A month later, no period. I got my big sister to buy me a pregnancy test, to her horror she lectured me but then bought one.
Positive.
My sister was the first person I told, and she started crying hugging me, telling me how stupid i was.
I weas going to get an abortion, but I couldnt bring myself to do it.
I told Carl, and he dumped me. Accusing me of cheating on him, being unfaithful, sleeping around and being a whore.
Alot of my friends stopped talking to me, thinking I had cheated on Carl without telling them, but with time they believed me.
Carl denied everything to do with the pregnancy, to this day he says it wasn't his. We speak occasionally. I regret choosing him, but 5 years on, I have a beautiful son. I only wish I had waited, been older, and most of all used protection. I am now engaged to my gorgeous fiance, Darren. He treats Kai as if he was his own, and Kai calls him daddy. Kai is the best thing in my life, and I don't regret having him, I just wished I had of been older.
Kat
Hi my name is Kat and I lost my virginity when I was 12, I am now 16.
I met Kory at the hospital where I was a volunteer. I was a candy striper and I got to bring him little trinkets. He was in the hospital because he had been shot. He was involved in gangs. After awhile he had to leave the hospital because he was all better and he game me his number.
I did not know what I wanted to do with it, so I did nothing for about 3 weeks. Then I called him. He remembered me and asked me to be his girlfriend. Things went great.
I had been dating Kory for about 2ms when we started talking about having sex. I told him we had to come up with a plan just in case anything would go wrong, like me getting pregnant. Well lets just say that all went to hell.
We had both decided that we would get tested, we didn't. We had decided we would use a condom and birth control, we did not use either. We said we would wait until I was 13 and he was 17 (he was 16 at the time) we didn't. I had told him that he needed to make it special, he defiantly didn't.
The night we had sex was the worst night of my life.
The train tracks in downtown is said to be where everything bad goes down, but it's also known for the best parties. I had been there once before and I had a ton of fun. The train tracks are really popular because they have all these abandoned train cars that kids can go in and mess around in.
So Kory and I went to one of the train cars where he said was a party. When we went inside I recognized some of his friends but it was odd because I was the only girl there. We then decided to get high. One of the guys Keoni had scored some "novelty shit" as he put it. I had never gotten high and the guys said they would look out for me. I trusted Kory to take care of me. Then we decided to snort some coke (I don't remember where we got it) and drink beers.
Then all of the sudden the guys started taking my clothes off, I was too high to realize and they laid me down and each of then took turns having sex with me. Kory went first. It hurt really bad and I bled everywhere, but I did not understand what was happening. After they had all had their fun they left me with bruises from having sex in a train car (they are totally gross) with my clothes off, in a pool of my own blood, and with sperm leaking from my body.
I woke up about a few hours later and called my best friend Shayna and told what had happened. She came and got me and took me to her house.I spent 3 days there refusing to leave and Shayna just took care of me.
I contact Kory and yelled at him for letting that happen to me, he said that he was sorry and that I had said yes, and he starting crying, I forgave him.
Finally Shayna convinced me to go to the hospital
There they tested me for STDs and to see if I was pregnant.
I had Chlamydia,Gonorrhea, Pelvic Inflammatory Disease and worst of all Hepatitis C. Thank god those are all treatable. I recovered from them all. Then I found out I was pregnant. I was raised by a mother who got pregnant by accident and when she was a teenager. I knew that I could not give my baby up. I decided to keep it.
I found out who the father was and it was Kory, wow I was lucky there.
When I told Kory it was his, he said that we would love to help me raise a baby. Everything was going great! Then I found out I was having twins. It was hard but I made it threw.
My babies are four years old their names are Gabe and Sam, Kory wanted to name them. A month after having my sons I got pregnant again (the second time Kory and I had sex) the condom broke and the pill did not help. I had twins again, my girls are three years old. Their names are Mischa and Shayna (after my best friend).
I now work and go to school full time. I am working to become a nurse, I have always been really smart. I dropped out, got my g.e.d and I'm in my second year of college and I already work at a local hospital. There is a daycare there and my kids get to go for free. Kory joined the army after being caught with drugs the court gave him options, either join the army, go to jail, go to military school. He chose to join the army. He has been serving for a few years now and he sends money back to us. I miss him, we are still not married.
My best friend Brenna and my mother died. They were on their way to pick me up from the hospital when they were hit by a drunk driver. Shayna helped me through it all.
The days are hard, but I never give up, I love Kory despite what happened.
Wait until you are older kids, having sex just is not worth it. The two times I have had sex I have gotten pregnant. Most people judge me, but hey, I'm a mother of four, I'm a nurse, I'm happy, but I always wonder what could have been if I had just waited longer.
Katie
My name is Katie, I was 17 when I lost my virginity and it was with my boyfriend. We had been dating almost 5 months, and I had never felt love like that before. We had talked about it and I said it would happen when I was ready and no sooner. So we gradually took bigger and bigger steps in our relationship. One day I pulled a muscle in my leg and couldn’t go to school and my boyfriend stayed home took take care of me, he was so sweet and caring, he rubbed my leg all day. That night when I was talking to him on the phone he said he felt really sick and would call me back. When he called he said he had been throwing up but felt better so we continued to talk, then he said he was going to be sick again to I told him to just go to bed and call me in the morning.
The next morning I got a call from him and he said he was throwing up all night and he didn’t think he could make it to school. So I decided not to go to school as well. I went to the store and bought some juices and came to see him. It felt so right to take care of him, and he just kept saying how much it meant to him that I stayed home as well. Before that day I wasn’t even considering having sex with him, but it was right, and I knew it was. So I looked at him and said I think I am ready, he looked at me and said,” are you sure”, I was. Then he picked me up and carried me to him bedroom, he put the condom on and I said I just need a minute which turned into like 10, but I was just so scared. I was afraid if he had sex it would have to happen all the time, I was afraid that we would start to fight a lot more and it would complicate our relationship, but finally I was willing to take the RISK. It hurt SO bad I was shaking, I didn’t want to tell him to stop, but I really don’t think I could have been able to talk if I wanted to, I couldn’t think or move, I just wanted him to hurry so it could be over with. The second it was over with I began to cry really hard and he just held me until I was okay again.
We are still together, and happy. Yes there have been some tough times between us but we have always worked past them. I won’t lie and say things haven’t changed in our relationship. Having sex makes you feel so strongly about the person it was with. I HIGHLY advise not having sex unless you are in love, and trust the person more than you do anyone else. Because all you are doing is opening yourself up to this person, loving them and doing things with them that you never have done in your life, and if you aren’t careful you will ultimately be hurt. I don’t know if I will be with him forever but I know I will be glad that I shared my whole heart with him. I am glad my first time was with someone I loved if it doesn’t last I will still be happy with the experience, I feel so LUCKY that I wasn’t one of the many girls out there who got tricked or taken advantage of. Don’t let it happen to you either, be smart, be careful, and make sure its real. Because that’s something you can never get back and you don’t want to regret it.
Ali
My name is Ali, I'm 17-years-old. I lost my virginity when i was 14, the guy i did it with was 20. i have to say that i wish i had not done it so early, not because i feel bad about it but because i was too young and my body did not enjoy it to the fullest. when it happened i really wasnt expecting it, it didnt even crossed my mind.
i met this guy named "j" on the internet, we messaged each other for a couple of months and he decided to give me his number. at first i wasnt sure about calling him since i barely knew him and for all i knew he could have been a sexual predator, but i decided to take my chances. then we talked for like a month when one day he dared me to meet him, for i told him i was a really shy girl, and truly i was(at the time). so we did meet finaly, but it was in a public place for safety. we talked for some hours when we decided to go to his place, and i accepted because he seem really cool and laid back and plus his house was very close to mi school so i didnt feel afraid but very nervous(i know now that was too risky) so when we were at his place he asked me if i wanted to watch a movie,and i was like ok.
he put the movie on and i sat down on one end of his big couch, then he sat at the other end of the couch(but to tell you the truth i actually wanted him close to me) but not even 10 minutes went by when he said " can i ask you something?" and i said "ok ask," he asked me if he could kiss me but i thought that i had just met this guy i couldnt do it now, it was too soon! but then i was dying to know what a kiss felt like( i know, lame) so i decided to give in to my curosity. he came and stood in front of me, i was expecting him to sit down next to me but oh well, he bent down and kissed me and at that point i wanted to stand but he pushed me back and ended up on top of me. i wasnt sure what to do, i was soo nervous and i felt like if i said something i was going to ruin the moment(something that i really didnt want) so we kissed for like 10 minutes, but i was fired up by that time, a feeling i didnt know how to handle.
he started to caress my tummy and then worked his way up with his hands, and i liked it so i let him. before i knew it i had no shirt or bra on me, he was touching me all over and i felt like i was gonna explode of how good it felt, and i didnt feel nervous anymore, i was actually fascinated with the fact that i had a man on top of me, touching me and wanting me. you all know the rest, but i got to say that i didnt enjoy it at all, it was too painful. after that "j" asked me to be his girlfriend but we only lasted for two months because of family issues. but even after breaking up we still kept seeing each other, in secret, we formed our little sexual affair and its been going on for 4 years now.
many of you may think by now that i must be a slut, but i have to say i only did it with him, and yes i did have many boyfriends, and yes i cheated on them with him, but i never did it with any of them, because i didnt need to, i have him. i dont feel any guilt whatsoever, and im not going to stop because i like it that way, it adds spice to my life. i just wanted to share my story with all of you because i felt like it. i dont want to influence anybody to do what i do, because i have to tell you that in order to this you gotta be a person that doesnt get emotionaly attached very easily and can let go easily because otherwise you'll get hurt and it can even turn in an obssesion that can make your life hell.
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